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Get Ready for My Transformation

2011-12-11T03:57:00.000-08:00

i have a tranformation for myself when 2012's comming.

i wanna be more calm, girly and feminime.

so far, i already bought some new clothes and shirts.
today i just bought eyeliner and scott.
and i already bought a new bag when i visited our client in WTC Mangga Dua :)

my resolution in 2012 are :
- use makes up to the office (i think i had completed my cosmetics collection)
- behave like a woman act. calm, feminime, small laugh, lil talk
- control my hair tht always messy. i will try to use moisturizer.

in order to achieve my resolution, u have to :
- wake up earlier
- study hard to wake up by myself
- add my spirit and my passion
- stop to complain 'bout everything
- do everything wif a heart and full of happiness
- move fast and not loading... :)

i hope i can realize my resolution. and i will be THE NEW MANISE...
looks like i can wait till 2012 arrives. :D

oh yes..there's 1 thing left, i want to be a chole person. and i wanna looks like an elegant woman..LOL

you guys, just wait and see my transformation.

SPIRIT..!!
i believe tht i can be... :)

2011-11-06T06:28:00.000-08:00

guess what was happened to my life??

sometimes not everything is happen like we wish for...

when i've got an opportunity to become a PM, i made an implementation project.tht start on Sept and it's over on Jan'12 so, u can resign on Feb'12..

and the bad news is....
my client ask to start the Project on Jan'12. and it's inpossible to finish on Feb'12

i really sad to hear tht news but what can I do? I can't do anything. u just can wait again. wait untill tht project start next year...
it means u have to survive longer here...

i hope i can survive...although it's hard...
i'm tiredd heree...really tired...
i haven't find my passion fully.

i hate when everthuing doesn't work as i planed. why??

if i review my experience since the 1st time i worked here...i just had 1 project..hahaha...

actually i'm sad when there is a new project but it isn't for me.
my boss told tht he will give a project for me...a promise is just a promise and i will never hope for a new project again. i'm sad....because i always stuck in an old project. 2 years project tht never finish..damn...

when will it over?? i'm tired...i'm boringg...
my fren tht join to this company with me already finish 3 project and got a bonus. and me? still stuck with this project...

for now i really don't care about a new project..actually i'm disappointed wif my bozz when he promise me a new project. in fact, i got nothing...and i just follow up a modification project.

huuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......i really tired to follow up and testing the modification. i want to implement a new project.....

everytime i hear our company get a new project, i always hope tht i will be assigned in it. but ut just a hope tht never happen.

the marketing div always asked for me to answer a new client's question but i never get an opportunity in implent there.

so, yesterday when the marketing div asked me to answer it, i ignored tht email because i'm busy enough wif my business...
my boss ever upset to me because i haven't complete my daily activity because i have to submit the answer of client's requirements asap to marketing div.

since tht day...

i swear tht i wouldn't help others if my business haven't finished yet.

maybe i'm selfish but i don't care.

start now, we take care our business by ourself. i don't want to care about other business anymore..

when i need a help, i try to handle my problems by myself. so, why do i have to care about yours?

bad news...... :(

2011-08-20T04:35:00.000-07:00

bad bad newssssss................

my senior follow my twitter...
for the 1st won't gave my tweet, but finally i told her...and i told her to keep it for herself.
don't asked anybody 'bout my tweet...

actually my twitter is the place tht i can express all of my fucking negative things.
so, don't wonder if my twitter full of my sadness and complaint...

one of the reason why doesn't my twitter exist?? it because my twitter is only for ppl who asked and i want to them follow

because i express all of my pesimist there...

i hate tht i'm late to change my pic and my nick name in my twitter, so there are 2 my fren in mmm follo me.
i hope tht no more other mmm's fren follow.
i already change my pic and my nick name..

actually, i need a place where i can express what i felt w/o anybody in mmm know 'bout it.

tht's why sometimes wht in twitter is different in Facebook.
sometimes my twiiter shows pesimist, negative, sadness, anger but facebokk shows reverse...optimist, positive, happiness, excitement.

now, only this place tht i still can express wht i feel w/o mmm's fren know 'bout.

i hope there are no mmm ppl know 'bout this place.hehe....

becoz in thiz place i'm talking 'bout everthing.....lol

Aug 15 - Aug 19, 2011 = DAMN WEEK

2011-08-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

what a stressfull week.....hufff.....

very tired....

on monday (15 Aug 2011) 3 of my client complaint 'bout the error when they process payroll. 1 of them is easy to handle. but the 2 others is hard to handle.

they call me every minute alternately...in tht time i wanna die....and had my ear so hot.
and then 1 of the 2 clients has a report modification tht the dll can't be copy to her computer so damn sucks...
i already sent many email in different format but she still can't copy tht file

she asked me to send a CD, so i sent it on tuesday.

finally the 2 of client's problem solved @ 7 PM...huffff....
i feel relieved hear tht news...and i think tht i can focus on the other client on tuesdae (16 Aug 2011)

infortunely 1 of the 2 clients tht hard to handle got a different problem on tuesday (16 Aug 2011)
oh fuck...it disturb my concentration when i was @ other client

but finally it solved wif my senior help...

but the problems haven't finished yet...
still have a report modification file tht i sent wif CD. ot can't work too.

the user was upset and asked some1 to come and help to fix it.
on tht day only 1 person in office tht he is a newbie.
i'm not sure to ask his help but the user was forced me to ask some1 came.

then i asked my bozz tht i want to ask him to visit tht client and my bozz was agree if he can do tht job.

finally i asked the newbie 1 to visit tht company. i was scared tht he will shock wif tht user coz the user is very fierce.

and when i asked him i got a bad mood to him...
i felt upset to him...

OMG it will be a 1 new post if i told the story...i was angry butt...ah, forget 'bout it.

actually the file can be copied to her computer wif condition tht she has to non-active her antivir

and the other problem was the other report modification was error when she printed.
she was angry again..

but the newbie back wif the result of her printed report.
when i asked the developer team tht made tht report...he told me tht he can't try to print it becoz the printer was brokken.
so, damn....i don't know wht i have to do again..arghh...

i was happy tht wednesday was holiday...so tht i can relax for a while but i got a new disaster on thursday....i think i will write on another dae...becoz i'm too tired to told 'bout this week..

Aug 15 - Aug 19, 2011 is a SUCKS WEEK tht i ever felt....damn damn...

tht stories above is for Aug 15 and Aug 16

in Aug 17 when ppl celebrate independence day....i'm dead.

the story for Aug 18 and Aug 19 allow me to told in another day.
'coz i can mbe crazy when i have to review all of the damn thing in 1 day....lol.

i think the story of Aug 15 and Aug 16 is enough eventhough i still have many thing tht i haven't told yet...
but i promise tht i will tell it..
just wait, hehe....

relieved....

2011-08-06T08:48:00.000-07:00

i feel relieved right now...i think tht i made a right decision...

last week i got a job offering fr my client to work in ANTV...
actually i was interested when she told the opportunity and the advantage..and i believe tht i can got a higher salary there..
becoz when i asked her 'bout the salary there, she asked me,"how much tht u expected?" but i didn't answered it..haha..

but i more believe my bozz and my senior yah so tht i was doubt wif her offering

she asked me to sent my CV, but i don't sent it. becoz i still confused and i'm not really sure with tht offering.
everyday she asked me to send my CV but i always gave a million reason to hold it..hehe..

i told her tht i have n0 rights to leave becoz all of my leave rights already booked for lebaran holidae..
so, i can't psikotest in a working days. then she asked me to tell tht i'm sick..

HELL no, i wouldn't do tht...becoz i think tht my c0mpany's rights to me work in my working day so i wouldn't harm my c0mpany...

but for iview she can arrange so i can iview after office hour..
i keep on my decision tht i won't psikotest in my working days...and the next day she called me then she told me tht this saturdae had a psikotest @ 07.30 AM (it's mean today is)

but, yesterday i told her tht i can't psikotest today....becoz my heart and my famz and my frenz told tht i have ti stay here..hehhe....

she felt disappointed wif my decision but i told her tht she will get a better person than me, lol.

but, i really really relieved todae for everything tht i had decided...and i just want to do my best in mmm :)

i believe tht this is the best decision tht i ever made..hehe..

s0, GANBATTE2 @ MMM....!!! :)

in a confused condition

2011-07-09T03:15:00.000-07:00

i've told to my bozzz tht i want to resign. my bozz told me to stay longer there because i haven't achieve the point tht he expect me to.

i said to myself to be strong when i told it to my bozzz....i said in my heart tht don't cry...don't cry...
and the reality is i'am crying. stu
pid...
why is my melan dominan @ tht time. i can't control myself to hold my tears.ah,

actually the things tht makes me cry is...
when i imagine tht i really resign fr tht company and out fr a nice envi.
i'm really happy wif tht envi, wif d fren...but i'm too tired and boring when i have to work w/o my passion.
my passion is everthing 4 me, so when i lose my passion its looks like i lose everthing.

the conv between my bozz and i take a long time...
when i told to my bozz actually i already sure wif my decision.cause 1 week ago before i decide to told to my bozz, i told to my senior tht tomoro i want to asked resign. then she gave me an advice...so, i'm thinking 'bout it more less 1 week untill the day i told to my bozz..

but 2 days before i ask resign to my bozz, he said to me tht makes me lil surprise.
he said,"Anis, i heard tht u are boring?"
"who said tht? you've got a wrong info, koh.." i answered wif a lil smile
since he asked me 'bout tht, i know tht my senior already told to my bozz 'bout my plan to resign.

in the day tht i want to speak to my bozz, i really nervous and scared..
so i decide to send a bbm to my bozz...

i type in my bb : Koh, entar sekitar jam 8 bisa ngomong private gk? but when i have to klik Enter, I closed my eyes.haha...

in short, i haven't told to my bozz 'bout the final decision untill now..
it's been 1 week after our conv.

so, wht should i do??

weekend

2011-06-11T07:58:00.000-07:00

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i really really can't get back my spirit anymore. i really lose it at all....i already try my best. but i can't.

i just decided to give a resignation letter to my boss on wednesday....after PP project sign off the handover letter on tuesday.

i still don't know what my planning letter. i will think 'bout it letter.

i still hope that i can work in japan or spore. so, i think i will practice my english and japanese language so tht i am more confident when i work overseas.

i believe tht can have an experience working in japan. and i believe tht i can bring my parent to SWIZZ. i really LOVE tht country. so, i need to work hard and study hard in order to earn much money.

i think i have to resign from here as soon as possible.
everyday i work without any spirit anymore. i lost my focus and my concentration

i wizh the sign off of handover PP project running smoothly. so that i can give my resignation letter on wednesday. one day after...

Buddha, plizz give me the POWER to face it. i really need more POWER and MIRACLE.

actually, my mom doesn't agree with my decision but it's 'bout what i feel. luckily, my dad already agree wif it. so it's not too hard to make sure to my mom.

i try to apply to PHILIPS hope i can ce accepted there...tht vacancy have an opportunity to working abroad. i hope thiz is one step for me to go to international.haha..

i remember my BIG bozz said tht opportunity move so fast, so we have to take it fastly and i don't want to let this opportunity go.

i think it's enough for todae. long time i don't mess my blog up.haha...

c u in another story of my life, lol...

whatever..

2011-05-10T06:09:00.000-07:00

Oh my beautiful eyes, plizz stop crying..
I u were, u hane to stand up...
Crying isn't mean anything..

But, I really can't handle this feeling anymore.

All of the feeling become 1 in me.

Upset, hate, sad, emotion, worry, spirit, tired, stupid, fool, fuck, sucks, insane, crazy, bored, lazy, damn, hell, bad

From the 17 feeling, I only had 1 positive feeling. How can I win fight d 16 negative feeling??!

I was cried when I enjoy my dinner..I can't hold my tears.
Luckily I'm alone when I had my dinner..
So, my famz don't know tht I'm crying.
I don't want my famz worried 'bout me. Although I'm sad, I always try to smile when I'm with them.

When I cry in my way to home fr my work, I always laugh when I'm in. Sometimes it's hurt when I have to lie myself.
I don't care 'bout my feeling. I just care 'bout my famz feeling.

Sometime, when I was arrived to my home sweet home, my parent were angry me..
Don't they know I'm hurt? Ofcourse they don't..because I never told it. I really sad when they are angry to me..especially when I just came home fr my work.

I'm tired already, they were completed it with their arguments.

Why am I crying?

I didn't know...
Maybe because I was disappointed because I didn't accepted in ACC.

And maybe because I have something tht I don't like fr my parent but I never tell it. I just don't want to hurt their feeling. So, I decided to keep the anger with me. But I swear tht I really love them so so much..

Opss, I think my dad just arrived..I have to clean my face up. I believe tht I'm in disorder..
So, enough 4 todae..although I haven't tell everything yet..hehe..

Thanks, blog tht always available 4 me to express myself..hehe..

don't know to say

2011-05-06T08:24:00.000-07:00

i applied leave on tuesdae..and evening tuesdae my bozZ asked, me : "Niz, don't you have a leave last week?" yes, tht's rights. i have a leave last week. then, my bozz asked me again. "what's up?" and i just answer tht i need a rest. i thought my bozz suspicious tht i try to find another job. then he continued his conve to me. "Maybe u have a leave because u have an interview". but i haven't response it, he said that was a joke. how can i believe tht only a joke when the the statement made me shocked. there are always a truth behind d jokes.then i just answer...."hahha, it's okey".

but untill i go home my bozz haven't approve my leave app yet. then i asked his permission in the morning..

i send a bbm to him, then i say :

me : "morning, i want to tell you tht i'm not working todae.
bozz : you are on leave, aren't u?
me : yess, i mean i'm leave. because yesterdae u haven't approve my leave app
bozz : oh, OK. anyway, are u okey, Nis? i'm worried 'bout u.
me : thanks, ko. oh, i'm OK. don't worried
bozz : Niz, don't go anywhere first. I need your help in HRIS.
me : (thinking wht should i have to answer)i will help as possible as i can
bozz : (hug emoticon) and (bg smile emo)
me : (smile emo)

the last conve makes me sad then i'm crying.

actually i have a psikotest in ACC.
my bozz statement lost my focus when i'm test.
everytime i did my test..tht statement fullfill my head. especially in PAULI test. so, i can't full of concentration...

today, when i want to go to the place where the test was held..all of the situation looks like doesn't support me.

first of all, heavy rain then my dad's car in machine shop. so i have to use motorcycle wif my dad. and most of my T-shirt got wet when i opened my raincot.
second, i only have a breakfast and i'm forgot to eat before i go. and my head so heavy
third, i haven't makes a copy for my sertificatiom and my qualification.
fourth, i don't bring my identity card. so, i don't fill it in d form
last but not least, my bozz statement always in my mind.

in tht test i feel tht i'm not fit.
finally, i failed in my psikotest.

i'm sad, i'm disappointed, because tht's my hope can be accepted in one of the Astra's companies. But i'm gratefull.
because i know tht everthing was happen to me always the best from Buddha.

maybe, i have to much study in Pro-Int. collect a lot of experience. and d important thing is i don't disppointing my bozz.

maybe i must not be selfish...
leave my office when they need my help.
actually, i don't know, am i help? because as i told before.
i lost my feeling here. i just scare tht i'm not much help.

maybe it's the time for me to try handle my moment feeling.

i just hope tht i can continue my best in Pro-Int!!!

So damn confused

2011-05-02T06:27:00.000-07:00

Toaday i really confuse. I got a sms to have a psikotest @ acc. The psikotest will be held on thursdae. I have to take a leave to join tht test. Actually i won't move from my job right now. But, it's looks like tht i have no feeling in my job right now. My performance was decreased...i can feel it. Actually i love the environtment @ my office. All of the people is great. But, i have to go out from my comfort zone. I have to try a new things. I need a new environtment and a new friend. Everything tht I did in my office is nothing...

It's looks like I made a damage to my office. I can't handle my job anymore and i can feel the passion anymore.....
All i wanna do is find a way back into love. I loss my love, i loss my feeling, i loss my passion and i loss everthing.

I'm so sad if i have to resign from my office because i feel like i have a second family. But, i can survive there...

I'm not capable to leave everything. My project, although sometimes i'm frustate with it, i will miss my fren, i will miss my senior, i will miss my boss, i will miss my big bos, i will miss a client's complain...i will miss everthing.

Now, i just want to do the best in my psikotest. I hope my psikotest on thursdae will be satisfied. Hope i can be accepted in acc. The company tht i want to join thereee....

Just hope d best for me yahh..

Hope i have the power to leave every memories @ pro-int....

stupid

2011-04-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

Todae I'm cried again..and I hate it.

When I walked to my home I choose the way tht more far becoz I want to cry.
In my way to home, I cried..just to express wht I feel..but when I arrive to my home, I clean my face. I don't want my famz know tht I'm just cried..

I'm too tired..
Todae we r only 3 consultants in office..and all of the clients looking 4 us.

1 of the consultant is a new employee..so, he's little bit confused to handle it.
So, only sis lisa and I that handle client.

Besides handle a clients, I have to help my fren fr the other division..actually I won't to help him. But, only consultant can do it. It's impossible if I asked the new employee becoz he's a new emp. And d other consultant is my senior, so it's impossible too if I asked her..

So, unluckily..tht's my job.

Becoz tht job wif a calling fr other clients and I waste much time to help myself.

Becoz too many things tht I have to handle wif a computer tht always hank..I'm forgot to complete my daily activity and my boss was upaset..

Ah, I hate todae..I just can cry..
I hate becoz I not have much time to finish my job.

My client is very urgent fr yesterdae..I think tht I want to follow up todae..
But, wht todae..
Todae all of my time only for helping my fren..how's great I am..haha..

I think tht I nees to find a new job..I just can survive anymore. I can't. I'm tried my best but it is nothing..damn..

Next week will be a hell day..but I never stop to hope tht everything will be okay..

I hope I can find a new job tht make me more comfortable and enjoy.

I hope my project finish asap, so I can resign..

I think tht I can't survive here..

Ah, so sucks

weekend

2011-03-11T22:23:00.000-08:00

already weekend...h0w fast it is.

already 1 year and 1 month i worked @ Pro-Int
actually i'm fear when l'm getting older.

i worry 'bout my future, i worry when i have to get marriage.
i can imagine when i have a husband. and i have a child or children.

my life isn't perfect and i can't make the other's life perfectly...

i'm bad to organize myself, how can i organize other ppl?

1 think that i really hate is i am hard to wake up in the morning.
can u imagine when u have your own family then you can't wake up in the morning. it's so such.

i can't imagine when i've a baby then i can't wake up in the late @ nite to take care the baby.

every dae i always try to wake up earlier, but it's hard..damn.

i really fear to have a relationship wif a man.
i just can trust to the love in this life.

in this true life, there is no true love like films showed. at lease in my point of view.

i scare i will hurt 'bout love.
maybe i'm a coward. i'm selfish because i just think 'bout my feeling.
i don't care 'bout ppl's feeling.

i always said tht i'm still young just to calm myself.

when my fren told me tht she was worry becoz she hadn't a boyfren untill now, u just can told to her tht we're still young.
tht statement not only for her but also for me.

i just told tht so, i can cheer my feeling up too.

i felt confused to my fren tht worried becoz she hadn't a boyfren becoz her age now.
is it a big prob?

sometimes i felt tht i wanted to back to the past.
when i was a child.

i never think 'bout anything.

i just knew 'bout playing every dae.

i have no worries

i have no strezz

i have no sadness

but it's imposibble for us to back to the future.
now i just can try to fight my fear.

i can't think too much 'bout my future.

i have to prepare d best 4 my future.

i believe tht i can change my life if i want to.
it's not hard to wake up in the mornink, right?lol...

alright then, i want to start to think the best plan for my future.

i just won't live wif a fear of my future.

i can create my own future start todae, right?lol...

guyz, give me your best support 4 me yaaa...
cya then..

thank you.. :)

I'm just trying to be stronger

2011-03-02T06:34:00.000-08:00

this is the first time i'm cry since i was in 2nd semester.

i feel so sad...

when i told that i always want to satisfy my client....that's only a rubbish.
in fact, i'm faild again. i made my client feel disappointed.

and todae my boss was angry to me again...becoz of my carelessness.

why do i became a forgetful person? why do i always forgot 'bout anything.
but, why don't they saw my hardwork?

i tried to do my best. i follow up my client when they were in emergency situation
why they can't be patient? becoz of this case i always forgot 'bout other client's
finally my other client's were forgotten by me. in short, my client feel disappointed to me.

i often go to my client in my office day. i only has 1 hour to follow up something, sometimes i have to follow up the other client when i was in client.

i have may issues for one client that i have to solve before monthly meeting then i have the other issues of client to solve too.

i always tried to do the best.
i just tired.

i tried that i have to pretend that i'm stronger.

i'm not really strong as i look.
i just hide my weakness.

i just pretend that i never feel tired. but actually i fell really tired.
i'm tiredd....

don't they know that?
yes, ofcourse they don't. becoz i never show it.

sometimes when i'm home my parent's tick of me for something.

i'm sad...
i really sad.

but i don't want they know that i'm sad..

i just can cry every nite before i go to sleep.

todae i just want to say tht todae i;m really tired and i'm really sadd....

i can't pretend tht everything is alright anymore.

i'm just can try to be stronger..
stronger than now.

God, please give me the power...^^

bye bye bro Nophe

2011-02-28T04:11:00.000-08:00

he's gone.....
one of our amuse fren in office.

todae is his last dae in office.
start 2moro he'll work in Semarang. and he neva back to jkt again.
he stay for good in Semarang.

i hope his last project will be excited..

i am so sad when he say good bye to all of us in office. because we looks like a family there.

we feel our parts are gone.

bro nophe, i wizh d bezt in everything u do. everywhere u are...

now if we have outing, there are only Adel, Bro Marvin, Sis Fei, Sis Martha and I as a default participant.lol...

i know tht each meeting has a separation.
so do us..maybe one of us may leave 1 by 1. but our memory neva leave..

take care Bro Nophee...

we'll miss u, lol....

laser game and mourn

2011-02-26T04:30:00.000-08:00

i can't wait untill this day..
i really want to play this game as soon as possible..

then todae i played this laser game @ kemang. i played wif my office's fren..

my fren have a voucher that IDR 90,000/6 person. the normal price is IDR 300,000/6 person. so, i asked my bro to play together. because it was cheap.

we meet @ office 1st then we went to kemang together.
we went to kemang wif 2 cars (Adel's and Bro Cliff's cars)and 3 motorcycles (Bro Andre, Bro Tommy, Edyson wif tono). my bro and i join in Bro Cliff's car.
there are 3 cars went to kemang by themselves.

when all of the participants were completed, we start our game.

we divided into 2 groups, there are green and red. my bro and i were in a green group.

along the game, i shoot my enemy...i run...i hide...
i apply every parts of war.

in that war, i often met ci Lisa...
she's my great PM in Pacific Place Jakarta's project.
we were attacked each other.

although only 15 minute games that we played, i really tired. when i'm tired in max. i just stayed in one strategy place, the wall wiff a hole in the center then i shoot my enemy from the distance.

when the game was over, we were out then laugh of loud and share our experience.

we saw the result, and the winner isss......

...THE RED GROUP...

altough my group was lose, but we having fun for the game.

and when we saw our personnal score, i'm in the second place out of 21 participant and my bro in the sixth place out of 21 participant.

my fren were surprise wif my score, so do i.
unexpected, i'm great in shooting people, lol.

the instrictor told that we can used a granat to kill our enemy. but when i tried to used it, it wasn't worked. i don't know, maybe i used it in a wrong way or i'm not realized tht i had use it.lol..

after finished the game and saw the result, we take many picture together and then we went to have lunch together.

my office's fren want to watching movie but i refuse becoz i want to went to Rumah Duka RSAD (Rumah Sakit Angkatan Darat)Gatot Subroto.
my grandmother's fren was rest in peace.

i was shocked wif tht news becoz i'm close wif her gradma..we had a small talk everytime we met.

although she always told a same story and same question, i never feel boring. so do wif my grandma that always had a same question.

after i pray for her grandma, i went home.
my fren Friska asked me to go to mall, but i refuse it. becoz i want to go home and have a rest.

tommorow, i don't know am i be able to go to monastery? but i tried my best..^^
2moro i have a farewell party.

my office fren's, Bro Nove will move to Semarang. becoz he has a new project there. After the project is finish, he will resign from Pro-Int and leave in Semarang forever. becoz her girlfriend is in Semarang.

we feel so sad, becoz we have to loss one of the amuse fren in Pro-Int.

bye bye Bro Nove, hope all d bezt 4 u....
success in everything u do.lol..

mix story

2011-02-22T03:51:00.000-08:00

What a busy lifee..

I want to told my story in friday ago..I went to my client. Coz I want to make sure that the request she asked was finished then I'm testing it. I'm very happy when she's satisfied with it. Although this request ever crowded and make my boss upset becoz of my fault. But it's good in the end. When I saw her laugh becoz her request was delivered successfully..

In tht time I swear to myself to keep my client's smile..I wouldn't never make my clients feel disappointed..
I always want to do d best tht I can do..

I promise tht I never make a mistake anymore and be professionals. Becoz, I'm a woman..not a girl anymore..I'm an employee not a college stu anymore. My past was very interesting, but my future will be more interesting..lol.

I thought when I went to my client it will be fast for me. Becoz I just checked and testing. But, when I'm testing, I found a lil bit problem..
My fren in the other client already finished wif his work then he asked me to go home together. Actually I want to go home wif him. Becoz it's friday and tomoro is weekend then I want to go to bandoeng.

But, I remember about my responsible to make sure that they request must be running this month, so I have to waiting for the fixed program fr d developer..

So, I decided to stay and waiting for the fixed..after I got d fixed..I'm tetsting again and it's perfect..my client more satisfy wif it.

Finally I finished @ 7.30 o'clock and I had to go home fr pulo gadung to my home..I can't imagine how far it is.

But, in the other side..I really happy for wht I've done..
Tht's d best tht I can gave for her.
But it motivated me to do something better..

@ saturdae I went to bandoeng wif my lovely fam and my cousins..we were having fun together..really fun. We celebrate cap go me there..

We back to jkt @sundae..in our way back to jkt. We were laugh of loud..
We forgot about everthing..I think this is d best trip tht we ever feel.

this blog is for friday, saturday and sunday ago..lol.

I hope u guyz don't be strezz becoz of my english..lol.

luckiest dae....

2011-02-15T07:24:00.001-08:00

Ibu Kita Kartini said tht "Habis Gelap Terbitlah Terang"
i really agree with it.
After my damn worst weekend, i had a greatest holidae todae....

i went to my grandmother's hoz @ pasar baroe then i went to matahari there...

i saw a cool promotion for FLD's shoes....the promotion is........BUY ONE GET ONE and the price for all of shoes is IDR 79.9.

i just want to buy a pair of shoes, so i ask my cousin....is she want to buy? but she won't. i am confuse because i only need one.

unexpected, i hear someone ask to the other visitor..."would you like to buy a pair of this shoes? so, i can buy one.
with my quick response, i told her..."Do you want to buy only one pair of shoes?" i told her that i just want to buy one too...whereas she doen't ask me before.

so we had a deal tht we'll buy it together.
but when she ask the shoes tht she want to buy, she doesn't found her size. i am little worry tht she will cancel to buy it.

so i start to find the other shoes for back up. then i found high heels and i like it.
but she found the other shoes and she want to buy it.

she feel that i looks like want buy tht high heel, yes i want....but as my promise before, i will buy tht shoes with her so i have to keep my promise.

i cancel t0 buy high heels, so i just buy this one...

in short, i bought this shoes for only IDR 39.5
may be todae is my luckiest day....
really love this shoes although i don't buy the high heels one.

that's okeyy...may be i will get a great high heel next time in the other lucky dae...

the worst weekend (cont.)

2011-02-13T03:39:00.000-08:00

wh0oammmmm.....bener2 weekend yang suram buat gue.

keseellll bangettttt....

pengenn marahh2...pengennn makii2....
arrrggggghhhhhhh....

seeebbaaaalllll......

h0pe tommorow will be better...
huffff.....

worst weekend

2011-02-11T23:10:00.001-08:00

ahhhhhh, what a bad weekend..

weekend tuh harusnya jadi hari yang paling menggembirakan bagi para pekerja kantoran. dimana bisa bermalas - malasan dan menenangkan diri. tapi itu gk terjadi sama gue. weekend bener - bener bikin males banget deh...

bue bener - bener terkapar banget abiz melewati minggu ini. minggu yang amat sangat berat. alhasil terkapar deh gue skrg.
masa weekend gini malah tepar...gk asiq banget kan?! bikin mood jadi jeleq pulak.

minggu depat akan lebih berat dari minggu ini. tapi semoga aje gue bisa melewatinya dengan baik. semoga kondisi gue di minggu depan uda lebih baik dan bisa menghadapinya dengan lebih semangatt....

tapi yang pasti, suerr banget...badan gue bener - bener drop bgt minggu ini. gue kagak pernah berasa se-drop ini.

kemaren abis gue pulang kerja, rasanya kleyengan gue. dunia gue berputar - putar gk jelas.

seeeebbbbbeeeeeeeellllllllllllllll....

today isn't in a good mood..... :(

EMERGENCY,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

2010-06-01T06:22:00.000-07:00

Lagi asik2nya beraktivitas tiba2 lampu mati...mau pake lilin takut kebakaran!
TNANK, untuk itulah EMERGENCY diciptakan.

Dengan modelnya yang unik, serta mudah untuk digunakan...

Sooooo, tunggu apalagi?? pesen skarang juga^^

IDR 105

Pengisian dilakukan dengan cara di charge (energi listrik)

CoDe : M05

IDR 35

Pengisian dengan menggunakan barte

CoDe : M06

Klo teMen2 pada tertaRiQ……k0nteQ me :
yM : giN_d12ag0n88
e-maiL : maniez.hendrawaty@gmail.com

thX 4 viSiTeD………^^
have a nice dae!!

C O M I N G S O O N !!

**Desk Lamp and Stop Kontak**

baRanG baRu guyzZ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

2009-07-19T00:58:00.000-07:00

GuyzZ, ada barang baguzZ neH!? Lampu meja yang cute abiezZ..buat kad0 uLtaH juga oK!?

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Lampu Meja :
• Tanpa Radiasi
• Cahaya Alami
• Tanpa Cahaya Kedip Terus Menerus

Cahaya Lampu Meja ini dapat disesuaikan sesuai dengan kebutuhan (2 JeniS cahaya).

K0de BaRang : M01

K0de BaRang : M02

K0de BaRang : M03

K0de BaRang : M04

Petunjuk pemakaian : terlampiR dalaM keMaSaN

lampu belajar ini menggunakan kapasitas SUPER LED (Light Emiting Diode). s0, gK peRlu lagi paKe 0r ganti2 lampu gara2 putuS oR reDuP. tinggaL c0l0q ajaH!?^^

Klo teMen2 pada tertaRiQ……k0nteQ me :
yM : giN_d12ag0n88
e-maiL : maniez.hendrawaty@gmail.com

thX 4 viSiTeD………^^
have a nice dae!!

my little br0 bday^^

2008-08-22T08:44:00.000-07:00

huahauhauahauahu

hari nih g k TA bareng tmn2 himsisf0.
pikiran mau skalian nyari kd0 buat ade g..
ternyata malah k enakkan main d TZ mpe gk sempet muter2 buat nyari kd0.h0h0.
swt,,,

akhir nya paz pulang dari TA g mendarat kan diri d sbuah dapur...dapur coklat nama nya^^

yah, akhir nya g bli s b0ngkah kue tart buat dd g.

truz paz nyampe hum, untunk ade g lagi tpar d kamar nya. s0, g bisa sembunyi2 bawa masuk kue nya..

truz g sembunyiin tuh kue d dalem kulkaz. g gk da ide gimana mau kasihin tuh kue buat ade g..biar dy sdikit surprise^^

truz biz bgn dari tpar nya, ade g kan mandi tuh!?
nah,,g gk k pikiran buat tar0 tuh kue d kamar nya yang glap yang nanti nya tuh kamar bakal d terangi oleh cahaya lilin 17^^

beh, g k pikiran tar0 kue nya d kamar nya tuh paz dy uda slese mandi n uda da d dlm kamar.

hm, sungguh d sayang kan..melewatkan 0pp0rtunity yang gitu baguz.

tapi gpp, dewi f0rtuna masih berpihak pada g..
tiba2 b0hlam 1000 watt nyala d kpala g (lebay dh, yh gk lah..k bayang gk sih p yang bakal terjadi klo bner ada b0hlam 1000 watt nyala d kpala g.h0h0.)

truz akhir nya ilham yang muncul melalui bohlam tuh menjadi nyata.

kan tuh bcah ngendep d kamar nya truz, lama aj gk kluar2. akhir nya g mutusin buat tar0 kue nya tuh d ruangan aja. truz lampu d ruangan nya yang d matiin. alhazil..tercipta lah sbuah ruangan yang hanya d terangi oleh lilin 17 thun.

yez..yez..yez..berhazil!?^^

gk mau k tinggalan, g bergegaz bangunin ny0kap g yang lagi tpar d kamar buat memeriahkan acara ultah tuh bcah..

padahal nykap g tdr dgn sangat lelep.

btapa jahat nya g yang buru2 in ny0kap bgn buat trun k TKP biar ny0kap juga menyaksikan anak nya yang gantenk ceng0.h0h0.

g takut nya klo tuh bcah uda k buru kluar sblum nykap da d TKP. kan gk seru klo nykap gk ikut nyaksiin^^..

y gk!?^^
y iy lah^^

paz tuh bcah kluar, kita orang langzung nyiram dy dgn lagu HEPY BDAY gitu..

d lanjutkan dgn serangkaian ritual seru yang biasa d lakukan orang2 pada umum nya lah saat mereka merayakan ultah.

ada adegan tiup lilin, yang seblum nya telah d l0ntar kan permintaan2, d0a dan harapan dy d ultah thn nih!?^^

setelah adegan CL0SE HIS EYEZ n MAKE A WISH, d lanjutkan k adegan pem0t0ngan kue oleh ybz.

truz suap2 an kue dari dy untuk bkap, ny0kap, n 0fc0urse me^^

kan pake cipi ka cipi ki tuh ama bkap, ny0kap, n g.
truz malang nya,,tuh bcah kdu cipi ka g yang bercucuran kringat deraz.

biz kan g jalan nya buru2 biz bli kue.
uda gk bisa mengandalkan angk0t paz masuk k k0mplek elit g tuh!?^^

s0, g pulang dgn cucuran kringat yang cukup deraz..n sngaja gk g lap. biar tuh bcah ngerasa in asin nya keringat g.wkwk.

padahal dy baru slese mandi.h0h0.

yah, sampe puncak acara nya, dy d kasi kad0 ma b0ny0k truz namaskara sama b0ny0k...h0h0.
yang pasti gk k tinggalan, d setiap sesi pasti ada ft02 nya.^^.

hauhauaua.
maaph y klo isi crita nya g nih gk gitu beraturan. s0, buat lu orang bingunk baca nya.
biz klo hati g lagi snenk.
paz ngetik, tangan g bergerak aj dgn sendiri nya^^
truz kata2 yang g l0ntar kan cuma mampir d 0tak aj..gk g rangkai dulu.

ya ini lah yang d sebut ALAMIAH..tanpa unsur buatan, rekayasa maupun bumbu ++..mua nya langsung dari kpala dan hati saya.h0h0.

slamat menikmati k bahagian g^^

kebahagian g = kebahagian kita bersama^^

un2

2008-08-17T04:34:00.000-07:00

haiya, hari nih ntah apa yang telah trjadi pada g..

padahal nih hari kmerdekaan. tapi g malah un2.

g lupa pass binusmaya g.
truz g klik f0rg0t pass, g juga lupa jawaban apa yang g isi ktika d berikan pertanyaan.h0h0.

nih akibat karena liburan panjang g uda gk pna buka2 bm kali yh!?^^

slain lupa pass bm g, g juga lupa pass emel g.
tapi untung nya klo lupa pass imel, masih bisa d uruz dg cepat.
h0h0.

tapi un2 nya g gk membuat smangat g d0wn lh0,,

g tetep semangat k0q hari nih!?

g abiz bebenah in kamar g.

hidup I N D 0 N E S I A, negeri ku..
M E R D E K A

jangan pernah patah semangat y!?
karena klo gk ada smangat, kita jadi gk semangat.h0h0.

sm0ga setelah 63 tahun kmerdekaan negara ind0nesia nih, semangat dalam diri kita teruz membara.
karena semangat merupakan salah satu fakt0r yang mewarnai hdup kita nih!?^^

apa pun yang terjadi, senenk, sdih, marah, jengkel, kusut, gembira..yang penting SEMANGAT..!!??

idup tuh mank bner2 ndah ternyata. ktika kita bisa bersyukur ataz apa yang telah kita miliki^^

2008-08-11T05:37:00.000-07:00

Hari ini sebelum kamu mengatakan kata-kata yang tidak baik,
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang tidak dapat berbicara sama sekali
Sebelum kamu mengeluh tentang rasa dari makananmu,
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang tidak punya apapun untuk dimakan.
Sebelum anda mengeluh tidak punya apa-apa
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang meminta-minta dijalanan.
Sebelum kamu mengeluh bahwa kamu buruk,
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang berada pada tingkat yang terburuk didalam hidupnya.
Sebelum kamu mengeluh tentang suami atau istri anda.
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang memohon kepada Tuhan untuk diberikan teman hidup
Hari ini sebelum kamu mengeluh tentang hidupmu,
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang meninggal terlalu cepat
Sebelum kamu mengeluh tentang anak-anakmu,
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang sangat ingin mempunyai anak tetapi dirinya tidak punya anak
Sebelum kamu mengeluh tentang rumahmu yang kotor karena pembantumu tidak mengerjakan tugasnya,
Pikirkan tentang orang-orang yang tinggal dijalanan
Sebelum kamu mengeluh tentang jauhnya kamu telah menyetir,
Pikirkan tentang seseorang yang menempuh jarak yang sama dengan berjalan
Dan disaat kamu lelah dan mengeluh tentang pekerjaanmu,
Pikirkan tentang pengangguran,orang-orang cacat yang berharap mereka mempunyai pekerjaan seperti anda
Sebelum kamu menunjukkan jari dan menyalahkan orang lain,
ingatlah bahwa tidak ada seorangpun yang tidak berdosa,,,
Dan ketika kamu sedang bersedih dan hidupmu dalam kesusahan,
Tersenyum dan berterima kasihlah kepada Tuhan bahwa kamu masih hidup !

Life is a gift .......
Live it...
Enjoy it...
Celebrate it...
And fulfill it........

Cintai orang lain dengan perkataan dan perbuatanmu
Cinta diciptakan tidak untuk disimpan atau disembunyikan
Anda tidak mencintai seseorang karena dia cantik atau tampan,
Mereka cantik/tampan karena anda mencintainya,,,
It's true you don't know what you've got until it's gone, but it's also true You don't know what you've been missing until it arrives!!!

cinta = menunggu buz

2008-08-06T04:18:00.000-07:00

Cinta itu seperti seseorang yang menunggu bis.

Sebuah bis datang, dan kau bilang, "Wah...terlalu sumpek dan panas, nggak bisa duduk nyaman nih! Aku tunggu bis berikutnya saja"

Kemudian bis berikutnya datang. Kamu melihatnya dan berkata, "Aduh bisnya kurang asik nih dan kok gak cakep begini... nggak mau ah.."

Bis selanjutnya datang, cool dan kau berminat, tapi dia seakan-akan tidak melihatmu dan melewatimu begitu saja.

Bis keempat berhenti di depan kamu. Bis itu kosong , cukup bagus, tapi kamu bilang, "Nggak ada AC nih, gua bisa kepanasan". Maka kamu membiarkan bis keempat pergi..

Waktu terus berlalu, kamu mulai sadar bahwa kamu bisa terlambat pergi ke kantor. Ketika bis kelima datang, kau sudah tak sabar, kamu langsung melompat masuk ke dalamnya. Setelah beberapa lama, kamu akhirnya sadar kalau kamu salah menaiki bis. Bis tersebut jurusannya bukan yang kau tuju! Dan kau baru sadar telah menyiakan waktumu sekian lama..

RENUNGAN :
Moral dari cerita ini, sering kali seseorang menunggu orang yang benar-benar 'ideal' untuk menjadi pasangan hidupnya. Padahal tidak ada orang yang 100% memenuhi keidealan kita. Dan kau pun sekali-kali tidak akan pernah bisa menjadi 100% sesuai keinginan dia. Tidak ada salahnya memiliki persyaratan untuk 'calon', tapi tidak ada salahnya juga memberi kesempatan kepada yang berhenti di depan kita.

Tentunya Dengan jurusan yang sama seperti yang kita tuju. Apabila ternyata memang tidak cocok, apa boleh buat.. tapi kau masih bisa berteriak 'Kiri !' dan keluar dengan sopan. Maka memberi kesempatan pada yang berhenti di depanmu, semuanya bergantung pada keputusanmu.

Daripada kita harus jalan kaki sendiri menuju kantormu, dalam arti menjalani hidup ini tanpa kehadiran orang yang dikasihi.

Cerita ini juga berarti, kalau kau benar-benar menemukan bis yang kosong, kau sukai dan bisa kau percayai, dan tentunya sejurusan dengan tujuanmu, kau dapat berusaha sebisamu untuk menghentikan bis tersebut di depanmu. Untuk dia memberi kesempatan kau masuk ke dalamnya. Karena menemukan yang seperti itu adalah suatu berkah yang sangat berharga dan sangat berarti. Bagimu sendiri, dan bagi dia.
Bis seperti apa yang kau tunggu?

hi!?

2008-08-06T04:02:00.000-07:00

thiz iz my bl0g,,,

my firzt blog.h0h0.